MAKING YOUR LIFE COUNT
Many times have I heard the saying,” One is two many and a thousands never enough‘. but I never got it. I do know that after I am clean for awhile and relapse and go back to my old ways, that its much more worst than the first time I used.. One is Too many and a thousands is never enough would go through my mind but I would convince myself that I could handle just a few hits. Iv been in rehab over 9 times and you would think that I would have that embedded into my mind. Oh I would think about it but I convince myself that I would be able to stop when I wanted to, but that just didn’t happen. After the first hit I would stay on a binge until I depleted all of my money including credit cards or end up in the emergency room with an overdose. Looking back at those times I can only imagine that I was suicidal and I was. I remember one particular time that I had been on a long binge and I started hurting in my arms and chest. So my wife rushed me to the Heart Center in the capital city. There my blood pressure was out of the roof so they attempted to give me something to calm me down. I didn’t remember except going completely out. I remember nothing but darkness and when I finally came to someone was holding my hand and I thought it was my wife, but it was the chaplain, My heart stopped for 1 hour In Matthew 12:43-45 gives the truth of the matter, “When the unclean spirit is gone out of a man, he walketh through dry places, seeking rest and finding none. Then he saith I will return o my house from where I came out; and when he comes he finds it empty, swept and garnished. Then goeth he, and takes with himself seven other spirits more wicked than himself and they enter in and dwell there :and the last state of that man is worst than the first. You cant handle one hit, it will eventually kill you.
Mathew 6:34 reads as follows,” Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow will take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.
You can be delivered from your addiction and start a new life free from drugs and alcohol. You can live an abundant life. When I think about one day at a time I can only say that I have to take it one minute at a time. But I’ve been delivered and days are better than they use to be. It takes a lot of work to stay clean, but my friend you can do it. Once you are seriously about getting clean and making your life count then you have a friend that stickiest closure than a brother his name is Jesus Christ. He will give you the grace to live one day at a time. My friend it is the truth I’ve been clean for quite some time and I owe it to the grace of Jesus Christ. We don’t have the time to worry. We have an adversary the devil wanted to kill steal and destroy, We have enough to be worried about besides little things when we have the devil trying to kill us.
People Places and things. Is another big one. I really think its the biggest thing that an addict goes though. First stop seeing the people you used with. Stop going to the places that you use to use at. My friend don’t let your guard down not one minute when you are fighting to stay clean and alive. I remember one particular time that I was clean for a while and I said to myself that those people need to see me clean so that it will give them hope. 3 months later I was back in rehab fighting my addictions again. You have got to work a bit for your recovery to work. People you have got to stay away from them. Places you must stay away from roads and places. You have got to give up certain things that trigger you to use. For an example going into a store where they sell alcohol. A cigarette lighter is a trigger to me. Watching drugs and such on TV. You have got to give it to God and let him lead you on your road to recovery. Do your steps 12 of them and continue until you have exhausted the 12 step program, This program is very important don’t give up, there is hope my friend.
Gregory Martin McLeod
The Apathetical Man